Let It Go

So it was a pretty crazy weekend, pretty full of people to see who I haven’t seen in a long time (some since before my injury) and things to do. I mean, I expected just as much for the weekend of my crazy party/benefit, but man, I had no idea all that I should have been preparing myself for.

booth2


It was a great night, so many smiling faces and supportive hugs. Seeing everyone meant the world to me. My talk went well, even though I was ridiculously nervous and probably said some stupid things, but I’m pretty good at saying stupid things (I tell Mom that it’s because it’s hereditary…I don’t know why she still loves me…). Anyways, my speech was recorded, so once it’s up online, I’ll make sure to post the link if you’d like to hear it.

1

You know, the more I think about it, it also was a night to start over, to let it all go. To let go of what was and look forward to what is. I guess that sounds dumb…hmmmm….

You know how sometimes you hold on to things? You hold on to precious trinkets from the past. You hold on to memories. You hold on to feelings. Heck, sometimes you don’t even realize you’re still holding on to those things. Sometimes you don’t even realize it until those things are literally staring you in face.

Somethings are worth holding on to. I’ll be the first to say I understand how precious certain memories are. I have a collection of them now that I don’t ever want to let go of. Like my memory of crossing the finish line of my first half marathon, heart pounding and legs exhausted. Like my memory of being knee deep in straw, assisting in the birth of a beautiful little lamb. The thought of letting go or forgetting those things terrifies me, but a friend once told me I wouldn’t be forgetting, I would just be putting those things in hibernation for awhile.

But some things you just need to let go of. Some things really aren’t worth holding on to.

As humans, we only have so much space for things. There is only so much space for the things we keep in our homes just like there is only so much room for the thoughts and feelings we keep in our minds and hearts. It really is up to us what we want to occupy those spaces.

There have been a lot of things in my head and heart since all of this happened, a lot of things I thought I had dealt with and never realized I actually hadn’t. It was like my own strange form of spinal cord injury baggage. And just like unpacking in real life is work, so is unpacking all that figurative baggage I had collected. I’m sure some things never got unpacked and instead are stuffed into the closet to find later, but I feel good. This feels good.

It feels so good to let it go. To let it go and just. Start. Over.

I’ve got a lot to look forward to in this crazy wonderful life I’ve been blessed with.We all have a lot to look forward to.
Why should we hold on to the negatives of our past? Why should we bother looking back.

Advertisements

7 thoughts on “Let It Go

  1. Jolene Mowrer says:

    Sam, I am so glad you plan to post your speech. Although I was at the benefit, I was out front and couldn’t hear it…people were talking about how great it was so I can’t wait to see it. You are right about letting go sometimes. We all have baggage that gets in the way of us moving forward. Thank you for reminding all of us how important it is to let go of the stuff that is not good for us. You are awesome! Keep being you!

  2. Katie Rickert says:

    We had a great time at your benefit party!
    Your right some memories from the past are better not to remember. Look ahead and plan for a better future. Enjoy “One Day at a Time.” God has blessed you with the desire to move on, to achieve more and to inspire others.

  3. Anna Grishaber says:

    Hi Sam! Glad you’re going to post your speech. I loved it! It reminded me of high school where we could hear your laugh from a mile away. A lot has changed since then but your laugh is priceless and I’m so glad its still so loud and joyful! I look forward to seeing your video!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s